Today I attended the breast unit at the hospital to hear the results of my recent biopsy. I had been told at the time that the mammogram and ultrasound scan seemed to indicate that the lump was a fat necrosis – a benign lump usually the result of an injury, although I couldn’t remember having hurt myself. The doctor performed a biopsy just to make sure.
I had a phone call yesterday after the multi-disciplinary team had met to discuss the results of my examinations, and they asked me to attend this morning. I had my suspicions that the news would not be good, because had the biopsy confirmed the doctor’s initial suspicion that it was benign, I think they would have told me over the phone.
They tell me I have Grade 2 Invasive Lobular Breast Cancer.
I have started a new Cancer Diary on this blog (tab under main header) where full details of my journey will be posted, so I won’t go into details here, apart from the fact that I am to have an MRI scan within the next two weeks, which will determine what kind of surgery I will require – whether I need a lumpectomy only, or a full mastectomy – and I am to have radiotherapy. No decision can yet be made as to whether I shall need chemotherapy.
For those of my readers who pray, I would value your prayers! I am not anxious and know that whatever happens, all will be well with me. I know Whose I am, and where my ultimate destinations lies! My faith (His gift, not my work) is strong, and I am safe in the palm of His hand.
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God,
to those who are the called according to His purpose.
(Romans 8:28)
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”
Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler
And from the perilous pestilence.
He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
(Psalm 91:1-6)
Obviously I would prefer to remain alive, though, and would prefer not to have chemo (horrible!) and in particular not to lose my hair – it’s taken me years to get it this long!!
My greatest wish is that throughout what lies ahead, I will be a faithful witness to the Lord Jesus, and bring glory to Him, and that through my behaviour and example, others may be drawn to faith in Him.
I do feel for my hubby, who has been through all this with me before, and he is a terrible worrier, always thinking the worst, and dreaming up worst-case-scenarios as massive castles in the air with very shaky foundations! Things never turn out as badly as he anticipates, but he will put himself through it every time!
Dearest Shoshi,
Whenever one reads such a thing as this page shares, one always “feels” so inadequate.
But really that’s good, as it’s really all GOD!
I used to say I’m so sorry, all I can do is pray but lately the Lord rebuked me..
I should say, the very BEST thing I can do is pray. AND I will indeed pray for you, dear hubby and everyone involved in the treatment and days that lie ahead.
… and I know with GOD will do the best for you.
We may not know what the future holds, but we know WHO HOLDS THE FUTURE.
When we belong to the Lord Jesus, then we are very sure that He is our own Saviour from sin and the ultimate punishment for sin , for to be separated from God for eternity, in a place or torment ..that place is very real.
… for Jesus Himself was the One in the NT. Who spoke the very most about the place called hell, why?
Because He knew it, and does not want anyone to go there.
He loved us so much He came to save us from it … and the joy of sins forgiven and a beautiful home in heaven carries you through many hardships on earth.
I think when you’ve had physical battles as you have it gives you a perspective on life you don’t have any other way.
You can be such a blessing and help to others because if that understanding.
Nearly dying or facing full on death makes you really realise what really matters.
It’s having daily a faith in the loving God the One alone Who gets it ALL… and carries you through… just like Psalm 91 shares it’s truly beautiful.
Some call it a Christian’s Life Insurance. ?
God be with you dearest sister in Christ and friend …” He will leave leave thee nor forsake thee.”
Jeremiah 29:11-13
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
Thanks for Sharing, God bless and keep you and dear hubby in the hollow of His hand,
Giant prayer hugs Shaz in Oz.x
{Wonderful Words of Life – Shaz in Oz}
{Calligraphy Cards – Shaz in Oz}
Hi Shoshi, I was so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. It must have been quite a shock as they had indicated it was likely to be a benign lump. I am glad you found it so quickly and they have acted promptly in investigating it. I feel for you and your hubby, and I can especially relate to what you say about him as I am a worrier and can turn a mole-hill into a mountain quite easily! I shall be thinking of you and sending love, hugs and positive thoughts your way.
Stay strong dear Shoshi ,
Diana xx
So sorry to hear your news Shoshi and I do hope you get all the help you need. Will be thinking of you and send all my best wishes. xx Jo
Sending you all my best wishes and prayers; I have been here, a few Christmas’s ago. Stay Strong Shoshi
Big Hugs ((((Lyn))))
Shoshi, I am so sorry to read your latest news, but so glad your faith is still sustaining you. Sending lots of love and hugs. Praying for you of course x. Angela
Thank you for your email to let me know what was happening – I am in awe that you are so strong – your faith will be a blessing to you in times ahead. I have had quite a few family and friends go through your journey – it is never easy. A few have also opted not to have the chemo treatments and they have always said they would rather stay with family for their journey rather then be in hospital. The only thing I can offer is my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and be well dear lady. Cheers Maurs xxx
Shoshi, so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I wish you all the best. As well as the treatment you will be receiving one thing that can help a lot is visualisation. Clear your mind and imagine the cancer gone, your breasts healthy. 10 minutes a day of this positive visualisation could help you. It certainly won’t do you any harm. Take care, my friend, beaming positive thoughts to you
Hugs
Lynne
Shoshi – I am only now catching up on some blog reading and commenting, and shocked to see this post. I know your faith is strong. Wish I was closer to offer practical support – and to hubby/kitties. I will follow your cancer blog and will pray. Much love, Ali xx